Solvency

And I need this to work, just for a second. Just until I get into the rhythm of it. When my mind opens up and welcomes all the thoughts swirling around me. Just until I find the right one. Like a ribbon floating in water, I need the current to maintain its motion. But then all is silent, deafeningly so.

And that would be when cowards like me start running. It’s deadly and terrifying, no one ever tells you about this. Wondering if it’s really worth the trouble. Well, is it? Hesitation, my only companion. Can it tell me what happened? I don’t think it really is worth it. Black and desolate, I retreat.

This is the farthest I’ll ever go.